All My Little Words

I’ve been hearing about this show for a while now, and at some point a bit back caught a random episode. Last night, I caught a random episode for maybe the third time, and at the end, decided to give in and go ahead and start watching from the beginning. Netflix has it available to “Watch Now”, and tonight, I started.

The concept is really interesting. Dexter is a sociopath who channels his urge to kill by only killing really shitty excuses for humans. People who kill kids, greaseballs who make rape porn and snuff films for the interwebs, that kind of thing. He describes himself as being empty inside and explains that he fakes all of his social interactions. I have to wonder if the show would have been a bit more intriguing if the viewer did not have this knowledge, because aside from a few awkward moments at understandable times, Dexter is doing a great job at faking it. In fact, he seems more realistic than most people I come across on any given day in daily life.
What really fascinates me is that he thinks of himself as hollow and empty, and because of this, he fakes his interactions with others. He must be different than most people because he apparently feels little or no sexual urges for anyone. He sure is different than me because he doesn’t seem to notice or realize that everyone is faking their social interactions.

I have this pet peeve, that is all tied up in the falseness of society. That we are trained to say things like “How are you?” when we don’t want to know the truth unless it can be summed up with a simple “I’m fine”. The fact that we tell everyone to “Have a nice day!” when, at best we cease to care how your day goes as soon as you are out of sight, and at worst, behind the 200 watt grin plastered on our faces, we are secretly wishing you’d step in front of a bus, please and thank you.

I am not a fan of social norms, and I try to avoid people on bad days when things suck, and I just can’t do the normal meet and greet bullshit. I personally think life would be so much more pleasant if everyone were willing to say “I’m shitty today, and  too bad for you if that’s not what you wanted to hear.” Or better yet, if people would just stop asking “How are you?” unless they really do give a crispy crap about your well being.

And because I am totally socially unacceptable, serial killers are fascinating, and a serial killer who hunts and kills serial killers is beyond fascinating. I mean, really – don’t you just want to kill (or at least see someone kill) some of the vile, disgusting shitbirds that do awful, awful things?

I’m gonna go watch another one now.

“When you condemn all religions and say they are a fairytale, that is wrong”

So I guess if you hold this opinion, just keep it to yourself, right? I hope I will see an update as to whether this gets to stay up or not.

In other news, I made some changes to the site today, adding a Twitter update feed in the sidebar (yay, it worked!) and some links to sites that I look at regularly. Unfortunately, I haven’t figured out how to display the links higher up in the sidebar as I would like to. I’ll have to keep working on that. oh, and I updated the About page.

Looking back, I see that a month or two ago, I looked forward to being “social” again. Now I realize more and more that it’s just not the same anymore. The circle is depleted, and destinations are in short supply. I sometimes wonder what the appeal was in the first place, but then I remember that it used to be so different.

I was really looking forward to going out for my “birthday” this weekend, to make up for what I didn’t do last weekend, and honestly I could have totally lived without it. I think I really am really done with it. I think I would much rather get the house together and spend my going out money on dinner parties and poker nights.

Or maybe I am just becoming more reclusive again? Hard to say.

On the way home today, I drove past the perfect house again. While the house itself is perfect, I would never buy it, for probably only two reasons. One, I think that it would unreasonable to think that even if it doesn’t sell soon, that it’s price will ever plummet to what I would consider reasonable. Even if it dropped 25%, the house would still be 450k, which is nearly twice what I am hoping to swoop in on something for in the next year or so. Two, I noticed in the listing that the lot size listed would make it only slightly larger than the house, but I thought it might be a mistake. Driving by today, I saw that it was not. The house is wedged onto its lot. This is great, as it makes it so much less desirable. I could never live even in a great house with a yard THAT tiny, and other houses looming over it, as one of its neighbors does. I’m sure I will find another house later in this game that I like almost as much that is affordable.

I should have taken my laptop to work today, as it was slow, but it’s okay that I didn’t, as I discovered something GREAT this morning. It’s called Twitter, and I can text little “blog” posts to it. This is the perfect thing for me, as I often have little thoughts that I don’t even have time to get to an available, running computer for, and it makes great use of the fact that I have unlimited text messages. Plus, I can also send myself little reminders about things. mine is here.

Great big thanks to Heather @ dooce for pointing out this little treasure!

Now I am off to shower and change for the evening. Woohoo.

I got a dog. About a month ago. I’ve always liked dogs, but dogs are a lot of work. When I was married, we tried having dogs but they drove my husband crazy, and ended up getting re-homed. The kittehs drove him crazy too, but no way would I ever let them go.And then there was Alex, who came with a dog. When he first brought this dog around, the kitties took it in stride. To be perfectly honest, they pwned this dog from the start.

Cloud would chase her. She made Jesse nervous, but he was more likely to smack her in the face than run away. Shadow really didn’t care, but she also was more likely to smack than run.

So when we decided that the kitties would probably be happier if Sasha had another dog to play with (rather than trying to play with them) and we decided to get a dog that was smaller than they are, we figured he would fit right in, at the bottom of the food chain. Instead, he succeeding in pwning everyone.

Who would have thought?

Actually, now that some time has passed, he disregards kitties, and they disregard him. I realized that the other day when I was installing the new photo gallery, and I looked up and saw this:

It’s not exactly an interspecies snuggle, but Jesse is a mere few feet from the evil one, and those pictures of Shadow and Cloud above were taken at the same time, and they were within the same short distance. I just couldn’t really get an accurate picture of it. So we have achieved a sort of peace with these three cats and two dogs (and a hamster) in which they will all (except hamster) sleep in the same room.

Now if only we had a house of our own. But that’s a completely different subject.

On a final related note, the new photo gallery LOOKS great. I really like he way it displays the photos, etc. However. It does not feature the one feature that the other gallery I’ve used that is simply he best feature ever. While this gallery will automatically display all of your photos at the size of your choosing (which is indeed an important feature as I certainly do not have time to resize every photo i want to post) it does not seem to allow me to upload an entire folder of photos at once. Instead, I have to browse etc. to upload each pic individually. This would not be the worst thing ever, as it does allow a number of upload fields to be used at once, BUT I have discovered that often, attempting to upload more than a few photos at a time simply doesn’t work.

I haven’t had a chance to fully explore what’s up with this yet, as there were no internets at work these last few days, but hopefully now that they are back, I can figure something out within the next week.

I was browsing themes earlier, and waddya know, I accidentally reset the theme of the blog. I actually really like it though, and it is time for a change, isn’t it?

I also think I have found some new photo gallery software, and I’ve been messing around with that, so maybe I’ll have some photo fun in a little bit here.

Relative to that last post, here is the listing for that house I fell in love with.

February was a full month of undeniably springlike weather, but true to form, March has come in like a lion so that she can go out like a lamb.

March brings a lot for me. Spring, my birthday, almost always a tax refund (as it should this year), and as a bonus for the first time in 94 years or something (and the last for another 180, I think I read somewhere) Easter, somewhat regrettably, the day AFTER my birthday. This means that my birthday celebration will not be on my birthday. Sigh. Not that I really care anyway – I really don’t have any inclination to do anything spectacular at all, honestly. I will be happy if I get a digital photo printer and my tax refund catches me up on bills and maybe pays up a bit of my cc cards.

The new business structure has been a hard transition financially, but I hope that it will just make the coming months easier.

I guess I really do not have nearly as much to say today as I thought I did…